Well so far I like the service desk. The only part that isn't much fun is being stuck in a little box all day when I'm used to walking around more and talking to every one. Answering the phone kind of sucks too because the one I'm usually next to is quiet and its hard to hear the other person. I'm usually giggling about something too so I stutter. By the way...we get some really weird calls.
I've finally got all my papers for school caught up. I didn't even realize I was on schedule until about two days ago when I was trying to decide what I needed to stress about most to get things done in order and had nothing. I haven't had that for months and didn't know what to do with myself. So I made fun of people on fmylife.com lol. So productive...
Small vent. I hate when people judge someone they don't know. I hate when someone talks to a person for five minutes and even when that person is trying to be nice they still get tagged as an ass. I really don't like it when this opinion is being aimed at a friend of mine. I didn't ask what your opinion of them was so shush. (that was the nicest I've ever shut the fuck up ever. and now its ruined) People know I'm really defensive about friends so why would they tell me that? That is asking for some ginger wrath to be unleashed. You're stupid.
and you not hood if you don't know what I'm talking bout
I'm so hood. (lol obviously)
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
So Take a Good Look at My Face
Some days I just don't understand one of my sisters.
One is very smart. She's got a lot of bills and has trouble making ends meet, but she works hard and saves what money she can and stuff like that. The other...well she doesn't think so much before doing things. She got an apartment with her boyfriend who she fought with. They broke up and now she's having issues with bills, has no food (with the exception of some butter) and today she thinks she wants to buy a dodge charger. I don't even know what to say to her except what the hell are you thinking? She has a tv she pays 300 a month on (rent to own thing. its a damn nice tv) school loans, medical bills, and her little dog to take care of and she wants to buy that. I just don't get it.
Well I totally got called a bitch by a customer the other day. That was fun. I don't care who but someone better be proud of me for controlling my temper. I was working u-scans and just walked away and then said have a nice day when she was leaving. I'll keep the mean comments I had in my head to myself. But damn...I happen to think for the most part I'm pretty damn pleasant. lol. I mean if you piss me off you are in trouble but I wasn't mad at the time and was actually in a good mood (I'd just gotten to work and Te and D were working) But I tried not to let it bother me. People come in there all the time ready to make a scene about anything. Little did she know my fist was about to make a scene on her face. haha. I was so pissed and Te was on lunch so I didn't have anyone to back me up with the mean glares haha.
Who is way too excited to sleep in tomorrow? THIS GIRL! haha.
You'll see my smile looks out of place.
If you look closer it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears.
One is very smart. She's got a lot of bills and has trouble making ends meet, but she works hard and saves what money she can and stuff like that. The other...well she doesn't think so much before doing things. She got an apartment with her boyfriend who she fought with. They broke up and now she's having issues with bills, has no food (with the exception of some butter) and today she thinks she wants to buy a dodge charger. I don't even know what to say to her except what the hell are you thinking? She has a tv she pays 300 a month on (rent to own thing. its a damn nice tv) school loans, medical bills, and her little dog to take care of and she wants to buy that. I just don't get it.
Well I totally got called a bitch by a customer the other day. That was fun. I don't care who but someone better be proud of me for controlling my temper. I was working u-scans and just walked away and then said have a nice day when she was leaving. I'll keep the mean comments I had in my head to myself. But damn...I happen to think for the most part I'm pretty damn pleasant. lol. I mean if you piss me off you are in trouble but I wasn't mad at the time and was actually in a good mood (I'd just gotten to work and Te and D were working) But I tried not to let it bother me. People come in there all the time ready to make a scene about anything. Little did she know my fist was about to make a scene on her face. haha. I was so pissed and Te was on lunch so I didn't have anyone to back me up with the mean glares haha.
Who is way too excited to sleep in tomorrow? THIS GIRL! haha.
You'll see my smile looks out of place.
If you look closer it's easy to trace
the tracks of my tears.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Leave Me Out in the Waste
Oh how I love sleeping in! I don't get to do it as often as I'd like but its really nice when I don't have to worry about when I'll get up. Of course there is usually a downside to this. I have to work from 5 until midnight tonight. Shoot me? I had to work from 6 to midnight last Thursday which sucked pretty bad. Instead of being on a register I was stocking and of course that was just a freaking blast because my back was hurting pretty bad at the end of the night. I wouldn't have minded as much if I would have been working with someone I liked but of course I was with the one manager that doesn't like me so we weren't having the best of evenings. I tried to act like she did like me for awhile and attempted to talk to her and be nice, but she shot that down pretty quick with a few shitty remarks. Oh well. It doesn't really bother me, she can think what she wants and be shady.
Thankfully today on my closing shift I'll be working with D. Even though I really do not want to work this shift because I have school tomorrow morning, I don't really mind since I like the people I work with today. However, there are some really strange people that come into the store late which I'm not looking forward to. Of course all the weird ones come out at night, but in that neighborhood...its a whole different breed of crazy. Plus, there are usually drunk ones that come in and many have short tempers so I'm really not looking forward to them. I've put up with them before but I can't help but always be a little nervous. You never know what could send someone over the edge.
I really need to write a paper for tomorrow, but who wants to do that? I'll probably wait until last minute and stress over it all day tomorrow. It shouldn't be too hard anyway. I think it will actually be pretty fun. It will be really interesting to see the responses of other people in that class because we had a disagreement the other day. Its over homelessness and me and two other girls got into it with the rest of the class about the causes. Our professor didn't really know what to do. haha. It was fun. I love debating with people.
This is not what I do. Its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.
Thankfully today on my closing shift I'll be working with D. Even though I really do not want to work this shift because I have school tomorrow morning, I don't really mind since I like the people I work with today. However, there are some really strange people that come into the store late which I'm not looking forward to. Of course all the weird ones come out at night, but in that neighborhood...its a whole different breed of crazy. Plus, there are usually drunk ones that come in and many have short tempers so I'm really not looking forward to them. I've put up with them before but I can't help but always be a little nervous. You never know what could send someone over the edge.
I really need to write a paper for tomorrow, but who wants to do that? I'll probably wait until last minute and stress over it all day tomorrow. It shouldn't be too hard anyway. I think it will actually be pretty fun. It will be really interesting to see the responses of other people in that class because we had a disagreement the other day. Its over homelessness and me and two other girls got into it with the rest of the class about the causes. Our professor didn't really know what to do. haha. It was fun. I love debating with people.
This is not what I do. Its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.
Monday, March 16, 2009
I Have Finally Decided to Hold My Head Up With Pride
Well this isn't exactly how I pictured this year going when thinking about it before I graduated. I figured I'd have my nice school schedule and hopefully a job. I got that part right. I thought I'd still hang out with friends a lot and be the same person. I got that part wrong. I thought I'd work enough hours to pay for what I needed and not try to take on more than I can handle with school. I got that part wrong. I thought I'd have the same friends. Wrong again. I just didn't see it being like this. I liked the picture I thought I would see but I think I like this one more. Well some parts of it. I didn't expect it to go exactly as I thought though because nothing ever does.
I enjoy my school and work balance most days. Sometimes I feel like I can't get things done on time but I usually find some way of amazing myself and finishing everything. I work a lot but I'm glad I do. Its actually one of my favorite places to go which I know is weird. (its not my job. I don't enjoy being a cashier, its being around the people that work there. it wouldn't matter where it was or what I was doing if I was with people like them I'd have to like it) Some days I'm not too thrilled about when I work but I can't complain. I get along with so many people there I can't help but enjoy working. Even with the shitty customers I still like it. I've always got someone there who will stand next to me and give them dirty looks or say something to shut them up. lol.
I hardly go out with friends anymore. I see some at school, send an email, or text but that's about it. I never stay out late with them or go to the movies or anything like I used to. Every once in awhile I'll go to lunch with someone, but not very often. I miss certain people. A lot. Even though I still talk to them its not the same I miss seeing them. I didn't expect to keep the same friends from high school. I knew I'd lose a lot and that's not what my issue is. I still have a lot, I'm just so damn busy because of work I can't see them. I get so frustrated with myself for staying so busy all the time. I get so excited just to go to lunch or Starbucks with a friend now because I'm either at school, work, or sleeping. I just miss being around them. I hate this antisocial bullshit. Its not me.
I'm much different. I'm still somewhat the same but some days I feel colder. I don't mean temperature related, though I am cold a lot and that's unlike me, I'm always wearing a jacket now. But I mean I feel somber. I'm still goofy and fun and I don't think my friends have noticed because I still act the same around them but I'm really quite solemn. I think this started with a certain death but I could be wrong. Its hard to explain...I act the same but I'm not as cheerful as often. I'm not depressed though. I don't know I'm almost confusing myself.
Oh well. I hope eventually I find a good balance with school, work, and my social life because I really need to fix it with some people. As for myself, I think I need to work on accepting that death to help myself. But its hard to accept it when I don't talk to anyone. I think I'm cold because I just ignore it and its building up. I don't know why I do this.
...And accept the way life takes you through these changes.
I enjoy my school and work balance most days. Sometimes I feel like I can't get things done on time but I usually find some way of amazing myself and finishing everything. I work a lot but I'm glad I do. Its actually one of my favorite places to go which I know is weird. (its not my job. I don't enjoy being a cashier, its being around the people that work there. it wouldn't matter where it was or what I was doing if I was with people like them I'd have to like it) Some days I'm not too thrilled about when I work but I can't complain. I get along with so many people there I can't help but enjoy working. Even with the shitty customers I still like it. I've always got someone there who will stand next to me and give them dirty looks or say something to shut them up. lol.
I hardly go out with friends anymore. I see some at school, send an email, or text but that's about it. I never stay out late with them or go to the movies or anything like I used to. Every once in awhile I'll go to lunch with someone, but not very often. I miss certain people. A lot. Even though I still talk to them its not the same I miss seeing them. I didn't expect to keep the same friends from high school. I knew I'd lose a lot and that's not what my issue is. I still have a lot, I'm just so damn busy because of work I can't see them. I get so frustrated with myself for staying so busy all the time. I get so excited just to go to lunch or Starbucks with a friend now because I'm either at school, work, or sleeping. I just miss being around them. I hate this antisocial bullshit. Its not me.
I'm much different. I'm still somewhat the same but some days I feel colder. I don't mean temperature related, though I am cold a lot and that's unlike me, I'm always wearing a jacket now. But I mean I feel somber. I'm still goofy and fun and I don't think my friends have noticed because I still act the same around them but I'm really quite solemn. I think this started with a certain death but I could be wrong. Its hard to explain...I act the same but I'm not as cheerful as often. I'm not depressed though. I don't know I'm almost confusing myself.
Oh well. I hope eventually I find a good balance with school, work, and my social life because I really need to fix it with some people. As for myself, I think I need to work on accepting that death to help myself. But its hard to accept it when I don't talk to anyone. I think I'm cold because I just ignore it and its building up. I don't know why I do this.
...And accept the way life takes you through these changes.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
It Isn't About the Years on Your Headstone
Well it looks like despite one managers attempt to get me out of BL I'm moving other places instead. On to the service desk they say! Where I get to handle all the pissy customers which, if you've been reading carefully, are my favorite! I really don't think I will like working there but I guess I shouldn't complain yet. We'll just have to see how it goes.
Despite common input from people who should shut the fuck up (excuse me) I'm happy with myself. I have a long way to go to get to where I'd like to be but I'm happy with what I'm doing. I'm going to school full time and doing my best. I'm working constantly to attempt to pay for as much as I can on my own. Though I do have a party side its not like its ruining my life and I actually don't even go to that many. Most of my weekends are dominated by work, so anyone that tells me having a fun Saturday every two or three months is bad can keep their opinion to themselves. Thanks. Of course there are things I would like to change or improve on, but I'm content. That's all I really care about. I love school. Yes I love it. I hate going some days but I love it. (Let me know if that ever makes sense) I enjoy work. I enjoy my freedom and schedule between work and school even though I get overwhelmed some weeks. I've had my rough patches and my issues, but I'm doing better. I've finally, yes finally, realized I'm not such a bad person. In fact, compared to certain people around me I'm pretty damn amazing. I hate to sound like a jackass but lets be honest here.
So basically my point is I'm okay. I mean I don't want to stay where I am forever, but as long as I continue progressing I'm okay. I enjoy my life and I honestly don't really care what anyone thinks. Well, except for like four people...but other than that no one counts. lol. I'm content for the most part with things and that's what matters. I'm working, going to school, and volunteering when I can and I don't know...I'm happy with it all. I hope to say that about the rest of my life. I might not have the most fabulous life story at the end, but as long as I enjoy it, the people I care about enjoy me being a part, and somewhere along the way I help at least one person, I'll know it wasn't wasted. Let's hope I get there.
...it's the dash between that counts.
Despite common input from people who should shut the fuck up (excuse me) I'm happy with myself. I have a long way to go to get to where I'd like to be but I'm happy with what I'm doing. I'm going to school full time and doing my best. I'm working constantly to attempt to pay for as much as I can on my own. Though I do have a party side its not like its ruining my life and I actually don't even go to that many. Most of my weekends are dominated by work, so anyone that tells me having a fun Saturday every two or three months is bad can keep their opinion to themselves. Thanks. Of course there are things I would like to change or improve on, but I'm content. That's all I really care about. I love school. Yes I love it. I hate going some days but I love it. (Let me know if that ever makes sense) I enjoy work. I enjoy my freedom and schedule between work and school even though I get overwhelmed some weeks. I've had my rough patches and my issues, but I'm doing better. I've finally, yes finally, realized I'm not such a bad person. In fact, compared to certain people around me I'm pretty damn amazing. I hate to sound like a jackass but lets be honest here.
So basically my point is I'm okay. I mean I don't want to stay where I am forever, but as long as I continue progressing I'm okay. I enjoy my life and I honestly don't really care what anyone thinks. Well, except for like four people...but other than that no one counts. lol. I'm content for the most part with things and that's what matters. I'm working, going to school, and volunteering when I can and I don't know...I'm happy with it all. I hope to say that about the rest of my life. I might not have the most fabulous life story at the end, but as long as I enjoy it, the people I care about enjoy me being a part, and somewhere along the way I help at least one person, I'll know it wasn't wasted. Let's hope I get there.
...it's the dash between that counts.
Friday, March 6, 2009
They Always Could Find Us
If I worked as hard on school as I did summer plans I'd graduate next semester. lol. Don't get me wrong I do work hard with my school stuff, I've just been making lovely summer plans as well. I can't wait!
So first I plan on working. Like a lot. I know this hardly sounds fun but what isn't more fun about having more money and less worries about paying things off? Then, in July, a concert! Woot! No Doubt got back together and they are going on tour with Paramore. They will be stopping in Noblesville, Indiana and that's where I'll be! Me and a friend got really excited about No Doubt reuniting (and touring with Paramore. its perfect) so we went ahead and got a pre sale code and bought them this morning! A month and a few days after the concert I'll be packing up with a couple best friends and heading to Destin, Florida for a week. How excited am I? VERY! lol. My friend's grandfather has a timeshare there. We already booked it and its right on the beach. AHH I'm so excited!
The best part is that all these things have to happen. They aren't like plans that can change or people can back out. The only one subject to change is work. (Who knows what the one crazy manager will do to get me out) I have a job so I have to work, we already bought the tickets for the concert so we have to go, and we already booked the timeshare. I'm loving this! I can't wait.
KL is joining in on my strange level of excitement. When we heard about the concert, she was the one who said we had to go. haha. Oh I love it! The concert is outside..and even though it will be probably be scorching hot we are totally cool with it.
This weekend I'm going to state prelims for winter guard. I'm looking forward to that a lot. And next week is my spring break. I'm not doing anything special for it other than enjoying Monday and Wednesday off. (Mondays and Wednesdays are the only days I don't work.) I'm averaging about 35 hours a week now. Talk about exhausting with school! Even though I complain sometimes, I do enjoy it. But not as much as I will enjoy this summer! =)
But they never could catch us.
So first I plan on working. Like a lot. I know this hardly sounds fun but what isn't more fun about having more money and less worries about paying things off? Then, in July, a concert! Woot! No Doubt got back together and they are going on tour with Paramore. They will be stopping in Noblesville, Indiana and that's where I'll be! Me and a friend got really excited about No Doubt reuniting (and touring with Paramore. its perfect) so we went ahead and got a pre sale code and bought them this morning! A month and a few days after the concert I'll be packing up with a couple best friends and heading to Destin, Florida for a week. How excited am I? VERY! lol. My friend's grandfather has a timeshare there. We already booked it and its right on the beach. AHH I'm so excited!
The best part is that all these things have to happen. They aren't like plans that can change or people can back out. The only one subject to change is work. (Who knows what the one crazy manager will do to get me out) I have a job so I have to work, we already bought the tickets for the concert so we have to go, and we already booked the timeshare. I'm loving this! I can't wait.
KL is joining in on my strange level of excitement. When we heard about the concert, she was the one who said we had to go. haha. Oh I love it! The concert is outside..and even though it will be probably be scorching hot we are totally cool with it.
This weekend I'm going to state prelims for winter guard. I'm looking forward to that a lot. And next week is my spring break. I'm not doing anything special for it other than enjoying Monday and Wednesday off. (Mondays and Wednesdays are the only days I don't work.) I'm averaging about 35 hours a week now. Talk about exhausting with school! Even though I complain sometimes, I do enjoy it. But not as much as I will enjoy this summer! =)
But they never could catch us.
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